Lamplighter Tarot Challenge Exercise #1

Sun Lamp is the title of the first exercise for this Virgo Season’s tarot challenge hosted by the amazing Thomas of Hermit’s Mirror. I felt so drawn to participate in this because I have found my drive for perfectionism to be paralyzing. It’s good to want to be great. But when the self-criticism gets to be so loud that you can’t even hear yourself think and you’re up to your neck swimming in anxiety, it’s time to assess.

If I can get in touch with this energy and do some shadow work to repair anything that is exacerbating the negative sides of Virgo energy, I want to do it. I’m at a place in my life, both financially and professionally, where I really need to take things to the next level. This is why I’ve chosen to use the Osho Zen Tarot deck, which is my go-to deck for shadow work more existential insight. I’ve showcased it here a few times in the past. The artwork is so vibrant and inspiring while the guidance is focused more on emotions, psychology, mentality, persona. The italicized portions are quotes from the deck’s guidebook, which I feel are relevant to the subject matter.

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Expectations and Invites

Today was an angry day. I didnโ€™t realise it until I let myself get pulled into my feelings with a stranger over somebody elseโ€™s business. Then I saw how angry I was and that that anger was sourced in several different issues.

I went to a relative with whom Iโ€™m trying to repair/build a relationship and they kinda confirmed they havenโ€™t changed. Or rather I had an expectation about something and they showed they didnโ€™t share that expectation. I tend to come away from interactions with them feeling like an employee rather than a family member.

We were supposed to go to an event tomorrow together. I am doing her hair, makeup, and costume. This whole week she has dodged getting together to go over things and she just told me sheโ€™s going to be busy all day tomorrow and will be available two hours before the event so that I can make her up and dress her.

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